Thursday, October 9, 2008

"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass. It's about learning to dance in the rain.".

I wish I could dance in the rain, except all I'm doing is treading water , trying to stay afloat. Everything is moving so fast. The storm is here and I can't see the end in sight. I just want to gather the rain in a bucket and through it up in the air, but the wind keeps on blowing me over.

The lord has blessed me with so many amazing, wonderful things, but I can't seem to get a grasp of it. I have so many different feelings about Faith. I love her so very, very much and want to give her the best life possible. She has come so far since she has been home, but I can't seem to focus on those great feats. I'm stuck focusing on all the things she can't do.

Paris, Roc, and Rex have been a handful. I can't seem to find time to go to the gym and instead have been eating junk all day. It's hotter than hell outside and I can't seem to stay cool. Then theres soccer, practices three days a week and Saturday games. I'm tired and have so much to do for Paris birthday, but don't have the energy to do them.

All Right, so I'm in a total FUNK.

Here are some pics to make this post a bit more positive in nature.

Future Bikini Model
Enjoying the lake
Paris and Roc showing Faith and Rex how to use the computer

The picture says it all.

Playing her drum

Making a Fort
Yo Bro, we can sleep in the kitchen!
Paris showing Faith how to send an email


Heidi said...

I'm sorry you are feeling in a funk. I hate funks! Is there anyplace you can go alone for a weekend? I find that if I can get away for a few days I come back a new refreshed mommy. Even an evening alone! All your kids are so beautiful and it looks like Faith is sitting up so well! She is such a cutie. Don't stress about her party....all she cares about is that she is with her family. :)

Kerri said...

I'm sorry you're in such a funk. I hope you find your way out of it soon.
Love all the great pics!
Kerri, Medina, and Ruby

Vanessa said...

I seen a sign that I so want to buy for my living room that has the same saying on it!! I want it as a reminder for when I'm in a funky mood!!

Praying you see the light soon!! Have faith and it will happen:)

Stacy said...

I am praying for you right now that God will lift you up! You don't have to do a thing... He will carry you.

Let's hang out... you, me and the babes. I'll email you.


Candy said...

Adding you to my Blog list. I read your post on AF...I am so sorry you are going thru this. I can tell you I would be asking the same questions as you...and my hubby would not handle the situation well at all. I don't know if you remember but I went to visit a little boy before we took his referral.....because my hubby did not think he looked Ok in the pictures(he was fine with one child...and I wanted AT LEAST ONE MORE)...they were saying Oh no he is 100%healthy and I know his case was a mess with a bad attorney....well I found out both of our concerns were true....he had been cut ooff from oxygen at birth and was 10 months old but seemed to be 3 months old and was very small and had a hard time taking a bottle...and then I find out his Facl had disappeared and so had the Birth Mom...what a mess. I still think about him all the time, and I tried to get him on a special needs list...but it never happened....HUGS to you and I think Faith is a BABY DOLL....LOVE the Hair

April said...

They are all so cute.. Faith looks so super happy with everyone.. I know what my life is like so I can just imagine what yours is like with younger kids than me.. XOXOX I am always here for you to talk too.. You are a wonderful mom and Jayme is a wonderful dad.. You are both truely wonderful people..

demp5 said...

Okay, we must be living the same life. Seriously, this four kids thing is HARD! You have such a great attitude. Just try to cut yourself some slack and remember that you will blink, and so much of this will be over. I will pray for some extra energy (or caffeine) for you. Hang in there!

Ella Marie Boutique said...

Your family is beautiful. Thanks for your post about Ella coming home. We are so excited and thankful!!
I found this verse for you right now, "Let us hold firmly to the hope that we have confessed, because we can trust God to do what he promised."
Habakkuk 2:3.

Jennifer and Craig said...

Hang in!! Hope you find your way out of the funk soon. It's hard to focus on the positive sometimes...I'm usually a pessimist myself. But you can tell how really far she's come since shes been home. You're doing a wonderful job and all your children are beauties!!
Jen :)

Bill said...

I'm curious - I just got that comment about Life is not about waiting. . . and googled it.
It brought me to you and my question is, is that an original quote from you?
If not, can you tell me where you got it from?

It's GREAT and I want to use it in a presentation I'm doing but want to give proper credit.