Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Random Thoughts

A year ago, this week, my husband and I were preparing to meet our fourth child, for the first time, in Guatemala. I'd like to say that I remember it like yesterday, but quit honestly, I don't. I remember being excited and nervous. Would she like us, would we like her, would it be hard to leave her behind not knowing when we'd see her again. A year ago seems like forever ago. Jayme and I had no idea at that time how much she was going to change our lives, forever.

I remember being a kid dreaming up what my future would be like. It couldn't be anything less than perfect because nothing else existed in my head. For those who knew me, knew I was never having kids, more or less getting married. I thought I was destined to be a socialite in Europe, traveling all over, partying like I would be 21 forever. When did I wake up from that dream. Every time I try and make a plan the exact opposite occurs, and probably for the better. OK, OK, so I never had the greatest plans to begin with.

It's amazing to me that it takes a holiday like Thanksgiving or Christmas to really think about all the things that we are thankful for, all the things that have impacted our lives and about all the people that we love so dearly. I often wonder why the Lord has blessed me the way he has. I have an incredible husband and am so thankful for all he does for me, the children, and all those he cares about. I'm thankful for my beautiful children, although they often drive me crazy, I couldn't imagine my life without them. I am also so very thankful for my family and Friends who love, care and support me on a daily basis. I am thankful for all my bloggers friend who continue to support, love and pray for us Riggio's.

My mind has been on a roller coaster this last year. First the adoption process, then bringing our daughter home and learning of her special needs, and then theres today. Today Jayme and I met with some therapist at a clinic that my nephew Joey goes to. The clinic was amazing and very different from where Faith attends therapy now. I've been frustrated with Faiths therapy and progress. Don't get me wrong, I am so thankful and excited about the progress she has made over the last seven months, however, I do feel that therapy, lately, has been going slow. I've also been trying to get her speech therapy and can't (it's a long story and would seriously bore most of you so I will refrain from getting into it). We met with several different therapist that deal with "alternative" therapies. We met with two gentlemen from Australian that put together an intensive home program that consists of 4-6 hours of therapy a day, as well as signed Faith up for Neuro suit therapy and Tomatis listening therapy. The Neuro suit and Tomatis therapy is a 3 week 6 hour a day, intensive program. I know it sounds like a lot, but I truly believe that Faith can and will benefit from these programs. We won't be starting until the first of January and I am very excited. The only downfall is that they are all very expensive therapies, luckily her progress, well-being and happiness is worth every penny. Today was a bit of a reality check for Jayme and I. We are realizing that Faith journey will not be a short one. The road will be long, but well worth the journey.

Thank you all for letting me share my life with you. Your love and support keep me going each and everyday. I read so many blogs and please excuse me if I haven't commented lately, I wanted to thank you all for your continuous support. And to my family and friends, LOVE YOU


Vanessa said...

I'll be keeping each of you in my prayers!! I pray things go well and she makes GREAT progress!!

Kerri said...

Life doesn't go as we plan, does it? I'm glad you're finding so many great ways to help Faith along.

Guatemalan Team said...

You are in my thoughts each and everyday.. I wish I lived closer to you so I could help you out even more than I did when we were in Guatemala.. Love ya all very much and Have a Happy Thanksgiving.. You are such wonderful friends in my life.. xoxox