So I have been struggling with a big decision. Maybe you can help me.

As most of you know my desire to have more kids is GREAT. My husbands desire for more kids not so great. However, he as given me the go ahead.

Our situation is this. We have 3 biological children and 1 adopted child. After our third child my husband got a vasectomy. Unfortunately my desire for more kids was to powerful for his vasectomy, so we adopted. When we adopted our daughter from Guatemala, I knew we were making the right decision. I never had a doubt in my mind that adopting from Guatemala was the right choice for us. I feel so blessed everyday to have had the opportunity to adopt our daughter.

Now that we have decide to have another child, I am not so clear on how to go about it. As of now we are leaning towards adopting from Ethiopia. But I am just not feeling 100% sure about it. Other options are Foster/Adopt, Domestic Adoption, vasectomy reversal, IVF, Artificial Insemination, etc..

Each of the above options has there negative and positive.

I pray, pray, pray about this and hope to get a clearer answer soon. Please dont mis interpret this. I am not complaining. It's a GREAT problem to have.

So what does everyone think. What would you do right now in your life if you were faced with the same issue?

From the mouth of a 3 year old.

So I'm dropping the kiddos off at school and this is the conversation I had with my son Rex,3.

Rex: "Mommy, Mommy, look at me".
Me: "I can't, I'm driving".
Rex: "Your not driving, your texting".

Last night my husband and I are trying to put the boys to bed and Rex,3 is giving Roc,7 a hard time. My husband brings Rex into the family room and he is mad.

Rex: "I'm going to beat Roc's ass".

Rex then runs back into the bedroom and says to Roc.

Rex: "You better watch it our I'm going to beat your ass".

I admit it, he gets it all from me.....OHHHHHH MAN

Paris and Faith

I have a sister, a twin sister. We have a bond that goes above and beyond any bond I've ever had with another human being. She is my best friend, my soul mate. Our relationship is indescribable. And that is what I want for my daughters.

When my daughter Paris was 7 yrs old we adopted our youngest child, Faith from Guatemala. She was 1 yrs old when she arrived home with us. Although there was a bit of an age difference, I was so excited for our oldest to have a sister of her own. I wanted her to have that special relationship with her new sister that I have with mine. However, when we brought our daughter home from Guatemala, we soon learned that she had special needs, needs that were both mental and physical. I was afraid that that relationship and bond that I wanted our

daughters to have would never happen. It tore me up.

This morning I realized that I was completely wrong. I was reading a blog post that completely changed my attitude towards my daughters relationship. Check it out

Last night Paris was playing with Faith and Faith was just cracking up. As I look back this morning and after reading the blog post I realized that my girls have an incredible bond, a bond that only GOD could have created. When they look at one another there eyes are filled with so much love and trust. I feel SOOOOOO blessed. I am glad that my eyes finally opened up to the relationship that my girls have.

Fay Fay at therapy. She is working on her jumping skills trying to strengthen her legs.

I feel so BLESSED

I wish everyone in the world could feel the same way I do.

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LOVED

BLESSED

HOPEFUL

ENCOURAGED

Times like these I think back to the days were the Lord opened my heart. The day the Lord choose me to be SAVED. My entire life changed that day. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry out in Joy. I feel so lucky.

Faith update:

I'm back in Los Angeles for Fay's 3 week 5 days a week, 3 hours a day of intensive Neurosuit therapy. It's the slow session and it's very quite here. Fay is doing great. They are working on her standing and crawling. I usually try not to get my hopes up during these session. If anything, these sessions make her so much stronger, however, my hopes are up this time. Fay is so close to crawling on all four. That will be a glorious day. Prayers are always welcomed.

So it's been raining cats and dogs here in L.A. I'm hoping it will subside long enough for me to take the kiddos to Disneyland on Monday. My older kiddos need some good Mommy time, hopefully Disneyland will accomplish that.

PEACE OUT

I got a blog award

The Sunshine Award is awarded to bloggers whose positivity and creativity inspires others in the blogworld. I, in turn, am supposed to pass this award on to 10 bloggers who inspire me. Here goes…

The 30 Day Journey........For Hope Is about an incredible family who's love for the Lord and his children can see them through anything. They are adoption advocates for those with special needs, especially Down Syndrome. You can't help but fall in love with them

Whatever it takes, No matter what This blog is near and dear to my heart. It is about my Nephew who suffered a near drowning three years ago and his new journey through life

The Love Shack This is one creative Mama. From her adoption of her daughter to her passion for photography, her words and life will inspire you

The life of Lou Lou Now this woman can sew as well as turn antiques/junk into between furniture. But that's not the half of it. She is raising 4 amazing children, 2 of whom are adopted from Guatemala

Familia Giancola Heres a family that will capture your heart. They have been working effortlessly to bring there daughter home from Guatemala

Danielle's Fight This blog is about an amazing young woman who is documenting her fight against cancer. Talk about inspirational

Okay so I'm suppose to do ten, but I'm currently at therapy with my daughter and can concentrate with her screaming. So I'll have to stop here. Pop on over to those blogs, they are amazing

Three Years Ago Our Lives Changed Forever

Three years ago the unthinkable happened. My nephew suffered an accident that would change our lives forever. Three years ago my nephew died and was brought back to us. However, when the Lord brought him back he was no longer the same child. He is now severely disabled. He is trapped in a a body that let's him do very little. We had no idea how our lives would change FOREVER.

Prior to my nephews accident, life was pretty easy. My siblings and I were blessed with amazing parents and an incredible loving and supportive extended family. We never went without. We had our share of ups and downs like most, but nothing that was life altering. Until that fateful day three years ago.

Through my nephews accident we learned our purpose in life. When I say OUR purpose, I include myself. Let me try and explain.

My sister and I are identical twins. Our lives mimicked each others in so many ways, from the car we drove to the amount of children we had and so on. My sister had a daughter and two boys like myself. I knew by adopting our fourth daughter that something was different with my sister and I. Keep in mind that our adoption was after my nephews accident. It wasn't until I brought our daughter home from Guatemala that I new what our connection was. Like my sister I now had a child that was also disabled.

Through my nephews accident and the strength, courage and dedication my sister has. I have been able to help my daughter in so many amazing ways. She has introduced me to therapies that have literally changed my daughters life and will continue to change her life.

I wish you could all met my nephew. He is incredible. If you'd like to met him, then hop over to my sister blog. Fighting for Joey

I feel very blessed to have Joey and Fay in my life. The Lord has opened my eyes to things that I never imagined where out there. Although life is now a bit more challenging, I am so grateful for the challenge.