Merry Christmas it was. I just found out that we are back in PGN. My Christmas wish did come true. We were re-submitted sometime between December 25th and 27th. None-the-less we are back in. Please, Please, Please, no more KO's.

On another note, my husband and I and the kids just returned from spending Christmas in Big Bear. There wasn't as much snow as I hoped for, but enough for the kids to go sledding alongside the house. My husbands parents and brother and his family joined us. Paris and Roc learned how to snowboard and they did a great job. Looks like another activity to add to the list. We all had a great time.

Tomorrow we are off to Pismo Beach for a couple of days to attend a wedding. From the snow to the beach. Gotta love California.

I hope everyone had a great Christmas and all your wishes come true. Happy New Year

Suzanne

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR

Today Faith turns 7 months. Happy 7 month birthday. We love you

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Stressed Out

So I've officially stressed myself out. I've decided to ban Guatadopt.com from computer, at least until the New Year. Guatadopt is an amazing source for info and meeting other families that are going through the same things. I've met so many wonderfull people that have supported me through this process, but if I don't quit Guatadopt today, I may never quit. Does anyone know of a twelve step program I can enroll in. j/k

In other news, Paris had her Christmas performance last night, she was absolutely amazing. I couldn't be more proud of her. Not only did she sing every word to every song, and there were a bunch, but she acted out each song. It was extremely entertaning. I'd share the video that I took of her with our new video camera, that we used for the first time, except half way through the performance, the camera went on the fritz and I lost what video I had of her. I was a bit frustrated and tryed not to lose my composure.

Is there a limit to prayers, wishes or miracles you could ask for. If it wasn't for the lord, I'd be in a mental ward. As my son says "He is my ROCK".

Well I'm just trying to keep it together. My prayers and thoughts are with everyone.

Knocked Out

So I was trying to resist the urge to call PGN. however, my agency doesn't discourage it and I let the anxiety get the best of me. I'm not sure if calling was the best thing to do or not. Anyways, I was told we had a KO(previo) December 14. Hopefully it will be taken care of fast.

Bummer, Bummer, Bummer.

So much for being one of the lucky ones.

Waiting, Waiting, Waiting

Waiting, waiting, waiting, I just keep on waiting. So now that I'm in PGN, or have been for the past 6 weeks and didn't know it, I've been stalking the PGNer forum on Guatadopt.com. I'm trying really hard to hold back from calling PGN. It's one obsession my husband and kids don't need for me to participate in. When stalking the forums I spend a LOT of time stalking everyones blogs. It's comforting to see people moving right along, and frustrating for those who are stuck. Nobody said adoption was easy, but nobody said it would be this hard either. I pray for no KO's from PGN and hope I'm one of the lucky ones to get out before the New Year. BUT, I'm trying to be realistic and optimistic at the same time.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Holiday season.

Keeping the Faith

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Patience

They say patience is a virtue, and maybe it is, however, when sitting around and waiting for any news about your child, patience seems to fly out the door. We were one of the lucky ones, we receive PA in 10 days and now it was just a matter of exiting family court in order to move forward with the process. Up until today I had thought that we were still in family court, I didn't know diffrent and my agency hadn't been informed otherwise. Well after much begging and pleading from myself and my agency, our attorney had informed us today that we have been out of family court and in PGN since October 31st. For those of you who don't know, October 31st is my birthday. Entering PGN is like a surprise belated birthday gift. Now with any luck we won't get knocked out and our beautiful daughter will be home early next year. Tears of joy can't even begin to explain my excitement.

On the news front, the adoption law has been approved and passed. What that means I'm not exactly sure. The one thing that I do know is all in-process cases will be grandfathered in and will proceed as planned based on the old guidlines.

Patience, Patience, Patience

Anxious anyone

I'm starting to feel anxious again. We are still in Family Court, at least I haven't heard differently. It's been well over 60 days and I just want ot move on to PGN. Jayme spoke with our agency today and they still have no new news. I've been doing my best to stay away from any new adoption news, it just makes me crazy.

Christmas and Chanukah shopping has been keeping me busy as well as the kids with their daily acivities.

My thoughts and prayers are with everyone during this holiday season.

A Prayer

This is a little prayer that I took from Baby-Z's blog. But it's the perfect prayer.

Dear Lord, I ask you to watch over all these babies. I pray that you would be a Daddy to them, and that you will whisper in their ears how much you love them. You can care for them so much better than we can; so Father, we give them to you and ask that you protect our hearts while we are waiting. We love you.Amen

We are home

We had such an amazing visit with our daughter. She is so precious and happy. I thought I would have a difficult time leaving her, but how can I possibly feel bad about leaving her with people who love her so dearly.

When we arrived in Guatemala to pick up Faith, I noticed that she was about two months behind in her development. Faith is six months old and is not able to sit up or roll over. Luckily we met some amazing people on our trip that re-assured me she will be fine. Of course I'd love to have her home where I can work with her more. We found out a little about the birth mother who I learned is very poor and has 4 other children with her. All her other children were slow to develop as well. None the less, Faith is beautiful, happy, alert and very content.

I ask that you pray for her health, her birth mother and foster mother.

I realized how lucky Faith is. She has three mothers that love her, who could ask for more.

God Bless

We are in Guatemala

First I'd like to say that this has been an amazing experience. Jayme and I arrived in Guatemala on Thursday and received our BEAUTIFUL, did I say BEAUTIFUL, because I meant BEAUUUUTIFUL daughter, on Friday afternoon. She is so amazing, she is very content and happy. She hasn't strayed from her schedule and sleeps awesome. Her foster mother was very nice and you can tell that she loves her very much.

We have meet some amazing families, that we hope to remain friends with for a very long time. All their babies are adorable.

Jayme is going steer crazy being stuck in the hotel and I am dreading haveing to leave. But I know a bond has been create and that is enough to keep me going until we are able to bring her home.

It is all in Gods hands, and by his grace we will have a beautiful daughter to add to our family.

I ask for your continued prayers. God Bless

Suzanne